So this has been on my mind all day and I have to finally let it out. First off, I was at work when the thought decided to wander through my brain and ever since then, it hasn’t left.
I recently got out of a relationship. I know, sad story, boo hoo. Well, my ex was an asshole. That’s just putting it lightly. He was a major douchebag. He would accuse me of being unfaithful and unloyal to him. I wasn’t able to do anything without him getting on my tail about it. I wasn’t able to hang out with my friends without him saying something like “Who you tryna look good for?” “Who you wanna get hit on by tonight?” and crap like that. Or he would say I’m lying about hanging out with my friends and that I’m meeting up with some guy. And that’s not even the worst part of it.
First of all, if I’m in a relationship with you, then it’s only you, that’s how I was taught and that’s how i grew up to be. I understand loyalty. There’s nobody on the side. Second of all, he was the one that was creepin’. He was the one with the side chick. He was the one that was being unfaithful and unloyal. So he’s got some nerves accusing when he should be the one looking in the mirror at himself.
But I remember him telling me some nights before that if I ever cheated on him, I would break his heart and hurt him in the worst way possible. Does anybody else see this dude as a joke…lmao! What’s been bugging me is I don’t recall if I ever told him off about that and knowing me, I probably did, but I just don’t remember.
A few weeks ago, he tried to message me to tell me what HE’S been going through and that he SEES pain he’s put me in…. now he really is a JOKE. I can’t stop laughing. (sorry I’m really sarcastic).
Anyway, I learned in my psych class that people will project onto you. Whatever they’re guilty of, they automatically think someone else is doing it. So keep an eye out for people like that.
On a side note, I’m so much better and happier off without him now. I never knew I could feel so much happier and free and actually feel supported in the things I want to accomplish in life. What makes you happy?